hey guys i am feelin a little sad today... My parents are away and Jamie is going to go to his orientations tomaro so i will be all alone.... and i got grounded for the day because my parents said the phone bill was to high and that i needed to stop talking to people so they grouned me from using the phone....

And now i can't go any were because i need to house sit and i am just lonly....

Then i got into a fight with my friend Matty and he said i was a bitch and a whore and that i would get no were in life with being those things and that he was telling this to me for my own good.... i couldn't belive him and i don't think i  am a whore i mean i know i am a bitch but a whore to i don't think so many people think i am but i know i am not since i know how far i have been and how many times and i know that isn't whore status.... and i mean i can be bitchy sometimes but i don't think so to my friends i mean i know i did get a little bitchy in sophomore year but hey that is only cuz i was protecting something that i didn't want ne one to find out to i figured that if i was a bitch to most people that no one would find out

i know it sounds stupid to most people but hey it is how my mind works ok.... god i can't help it

I am just so fucking depressed right now that i can't stand it and i want someone to come over but i know if i invite who i realy want to invite they will invite the whole world because they know that i am home alone.... and i don't really feel like partaying right now you know

Then one of my best friends told me that they were moving and that they weren't going to be in Junior year with me and i think i like cryed for like 3 hours hun i am going to miss you soooooo much!